All In Love Is Fair

A faded smile, another trial for you
You’re reaching for another shore but you
Cannot be true
A lie was named for you

An empty chair and graying hair for you
A dream a day has run away from you
Can it be true
We are the things we do

But when you say
All in love is fair
Hold my hand and I’ll take you there

And if you say
Just one day could it be today
Look my way as you walk away
Walkin’ away

Belle of the ball, I took the fall for you
Slept in my car, I bled and starved for you
And all that you do
I cried a lake for you

You’re on the trail, while I’m in jail for you
Through flaming coals to save your soul, what for?
But all I could do
Was wave goodbye to you

But when you say
All in love is fair
Hold my hand and I’ll take you there
Takin’ you there

And when you say
One more day could be the day
Call my name as I walk away
Walking away
Away…

And when the storm breaks through
The lies in your eyes, bad dreams come true
You’ll call my name in vain
And never love again

A faded smile, another trial for you
You’re reaching for another shore but you
Cannot be true
A lie was named for you


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Black Diamond

There’s nothing left to celebrate
It seems that I’ve arrived too late, uh-huh
So face the truth and face the day
When all your cares just slip away uh-huh
So put me in your television and show me what you mean
Though your love was like electrocution
I kinda miss the sting
Black diamond
Black diamond
Black diamond

There’s nothing left to celebrate
It seems that I’ve arrived too late, uh-huh
So tell me lies, now, like you do
It seems I need to hear them too, uh-huh

So put me in your television and show me what you mean
Though your love was like a vivisection
I kinda miss the sting
Black diamond
Black diamond
Black diamond


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan
 

Bombardier (July 1, 1916)

Hands raised
Volunteers
Fresh faced
Tender years
And when you’re done, another one
will run that gun
She’s your Verdun, she can’t be won
Oh brother, keep that vow
‘cause you can’t hide now
Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier
You tried to burn it out
Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier,
You tried to blow it down
Bombardier, bombardier…bombardier,
It’s not in your hands

Midnight
Firefight
Town

Too real
Wound won’t
heal

And when you’re done, another one
Will run that gun
You’re at the Somme, she can’t be won
Oh mother, keep that crown
You can fly now

Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier,
You tried to tear me down
Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier,
You tried to wipe me out
Bombardier, bombardier…bombardier
It’s out of your hands

And when you’re done, another one
Will run that gun
Dead and gone, to Avalon
Oh mother, keep that crown
You can fly now

Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier,
You tried to run away
Bombardier, bombardier, bombardier, bombardier,
And now you’ll rue the day
“Vous ne les laisserez pas passer, mes camarades”

Your soul is rent and out, and flying up, so long


From “The Barrelhouse Opera” by Cait Brennan. Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Dear Arthur

Dear Arthur
No I don’t mean to be a bother
But every day’s been like a slaughter
Since your departure

Dear Arthur
My mother said she ran like water
To other men who sold and bought her
When you forgot her?

Older now—
I’ve been running to you
Down at the show
Down at the show
But it’s over now
And the lights are goin’ down
Down at the show
Down at the show

Dear Arthur
Your fiddle pawned to pay the pusher
She picked your bones just like a vulture
And yet you loved her

Dear Arthur
Though you could never be no farther
But all the pain you have forgotten
Will never find you on the ocean
On the ocean
On the ocean – you’re sailing on the ocean
And on the sea you walk on
holy water

Older now – I’ve been running to you
Down at the show
Down at the show
Cause it’s over now
And the lights are goin’ down
Down at the show
Down at the show

Older now – are you runnin’ to me
Down at the show?
Cause it’s over now
And the lights have all gone down
Down at the show

Dear Arthur
Dear Arthur
Dear Arthur
Play a memory for your daughter


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2013 Cait Brennan

Fassinger’s Friends

Hey mister, you know I adore you
More than all the thousands before you, now
Don’t you dare forget for a minute
If you’ve got a diary I wanna be in it now

We’ll call Fassinger’s friends, get him over again
We’ll call Fassinger’s friends, get him over again, bring him over again
‘cause I don’t wanna be the one who lets down the team

Longing looks, a hint of attention
Breaking down our social conventions now
Stage is set, the ice is a-broken
Sing your heart, can’t leave it unspoken now
now, now, now…

Try, try
You can’t deny it’s time
Your eyes, your eyes just looked at mine
And sighed,
but baby don’t you cry

We’ll call Fassinger’s friends, get him over again
We’ll call Fassinger’s friends, get him over again, bring him over again
‘cause I don’t wanna be the one who lets down the team

‘cause I don’t wanna be the one who lets down the team

why I gotta be the one who lets down the team?

From “The Barrelhouse Opera” by Cait Brennan. Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

 

Father McKenzie


Father Mckenzie, cold and all alone
all of your children run away from home
would you?

Agony aunt says whatcha gonna do?
Love is is the answer, baby will I do?
Feelin your oats since 1992, could you
       
“And I don’t wanna walk with you
And I don’t wanna talk like you
And I don’t wanna fuss with rubber suits and superglue”

Hey, bada baa pa ba
ba ba pa ba
ba ba da da, ooh
Hey, bada baa pa ba
ba ba pa ba
ba ba da da, ooh

Where do good boys go?


Anthony Advert wears his big boy pants
to the Disciples of Bilitis dance, would you?
“Every day’s been like the one before—
kneeling and praying, must be something more
waiting in vain for someone at the door to do

“And I don’t wanna run with you
And I don’t want no fun with you
And I don’t want your fithy, dirty common rendezvous”

Father McCartney, out in the country, selling patent medicines and more
Mater and Pater said see ya later, can’t bear the weight anymore

Hey, bada baa pa ba
ba ba pa ba
ba ba da da, ooh
Hey, bada baa pa ba
ba ba pa ba
ba ba da da, ooh

Where do good boys go?
Where do good boys go?
Where do good boys go?

Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Good Morning And Goodnight

Yeah mister sun, I see you peeking
Over the hillside, bright as flame
And all the people rise-and-shining
Revving their engines, just the same

The morning newsgirl’s sharing
viral videos
and tweets and posts
Here comes the traffic whore

Good morning, yeah, good morning
It’s America, good morning
Good morning, yeah, good morning
Good morning and goodnight

You got your boots for social climbing
Your vegan green electric car
The Google Bus is here to take you
Up to that hillside shining star

And while you die a little
Every passing day
You feel your life
Just slip away, hooray,

Good morning, yeah good morning
It’s Freedom, yeah, good morning
Good morning, yeah, good morning
Good morning and goodnight

We’ve got some breaking news just in, just in
The bad guys won this round again, again
And all those things you hoped were gone, are here
The help we counted on has disappeared
And we’re so weary of despair and fear

The morning newsgirl’s saying “it’s all in your head”
I’m going back to bed

Good morning, yeah good morning
It’s planet Earth, good morning
Good morning, yeah, good morning
Good morning and goodnight

Good morning, yeah good morning
It’s planet Earth, good morning
Good morning, yeah, good morning
Good morning and goodnight

Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

MEET YOUR REMAKER / Harmony Lies

 

MEET YOUR REMAKER

Meet your remaker
Cosmic fakir
Get in line, you’re next to see

Meet your remaker
Your heartbreaker
It’s gonna hurt you more than…

“Just a little bit
Gotta make it fit”
the girl in the window she knows
What you’re wanting to be

“But nothing you alight
could ever make it right”
I choked down, I broke down and cried
And I bled to be free

Meet your remaker,
“Undertaker"—
But in time you’ll come to see

There’s no mistake, ah
You could make, yeah
That could be worse than all the…

Hurt you’re living in
Years of giving in
They named you and shamed you, they tried
But you dared to be free

And now’s your final chance
To change your circumstance
So face it, embrace it,
it’s time
To see who you will be

Meet your remaker
Here to take you
Beyond the doors and out to sea

Don’t let ‘em shake you
They can’t break you
You’re gonna find some harmony…

HARMONY LIES

The doctor’s cold, he’s been paroled, he’ll sculpt and mold you for the gold
Origami folds and just a touch, a sleeper hold
You think you know where you belong?
He’s gonna show where you were wrong

He’s got big plans, he’s got strange hands, he’s gonna cut to your commands
All your little fans are gonna fall right where they stand
He’s gonna take away your man
And leave a stranger in the pan
(Oh, I do like this bit…)

Harmony lies inside your eyes
Harmony lies inside of your mind
Don’t you believe it for a minute
Say your good-byes and dry your eyes
Harmony lies inside, are you blind?
“Don’t ever leave it undefended”

The nurse is so severe, she smells the fear and calls you “dear” and worse
One bony hand upon your shoulder and another on your purse
Says he neglected to rehearse
(I heard her ordering a hearse)

The secretary, quite contrary, wants to phone your next of kin
(precautionary—don’t you dare be throwin’ caution to the wind!)
That’s your eleventh deadly sin
They knuckle down and roll you in
(Butterfingers!)

Harmony lies inside your eyes
Harmony lies inside of your mind
Don’t you believe it for a minute
Say your good-byes and dry your eyes
Harmony lies inside, are you blind?
“Don’t ever leave it undefended”

She was a fool to come here
(she’s gonna rue what’s done here—stitched up like yesterday’s clothes)
But what the hell would you do? If this had happened to you?
False hope’s still hope, I suppose

The operation’s a sensation, it’s a qualified success
A celebration, revelation, it’s enough to fool the rest!
(Methinks the lady doth protest!)
Enjoy your life of second best

Harmony lies inside your eyes
Harmony lies inside of your mind
Don’t you believe it for a minute
So say your good-byes and dry your eyes
Harmony dies inside, is it time?


From “The Barrelhouse Opera” by Cait Brennan. Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

I Want You Back

For all your restlessness
and hatefulness
I want you back
I want you back
I want you

For your forgetfulness
dead promises
I want you back
I want you back
I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you

For all your bitterness,
consider this:
I want you back
I want you back
I want you

For your deceitfulness,
still this is bliss
I want you back
I want you back
I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you

(solo)

For your hostility
it’s killing me,
I want you back
I want you back
I want you

For all your evil ways,
I miss those days
I want you back
I want you back
I want you
I want you
I want you
I want you



Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Jenny Said

A SoHo bar – a broken heart
A brand new start – a brand new me
She grabbed my hand – said “I’m your man”
This stranger said – it’s off to bed

But I said “Wait, compare me to a summer’s day
The winds that shake the darling buds of May
Woo me, woo me, school me in the ways of love”

Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown
Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown

I was perplexed – a little hurt
She tore my shirt – a Stanley knife
She said “I need” – at breakneck speed!
She said “You’re fit – get on with it”

But then I said “Grow old, old along with me”
I said “The best, best is yet to be”
I said “The ways, let me count the ways of love” (2 – 3- )
Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown
Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown

Now mamma always told me, she said not to talk to strangers
No matter what you do, or who you do, or where you go
But living long and lonely’s worse than facing all those dangers
And you know it hurts me so
But you know it’s time to go, let’s go

(solo)

I guess we left – both arm in arm
Too much Boone’s Farm – We’re at her place
Gastric lavage – in her garage
It made no dent – The main event

At first she smacked every little thing
And third, she broke, broke my promise ring
She fooled me, schooled me, tooled me in the ways of love

Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown
Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown
Then Jenny Said
“You bring me down”
Don’t fool around
Let’s go downtown



Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Johnny Law

Routine stop on a Saturday night
Everything’s fine if you pay him off right
Shit got real when he saw that light
Went for his gun – we’re gonna fight

Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law
Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law

They say you gotta skim a little just to make ends meet
Boy scout’s never gonna make it on the street
They cut down Jimmy like a dog that night
Eye for an eye will make it right

Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law
Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law

Give me the hands of love
Give me the hands of love
Give me the hands of law

Desperate times in the desperate hood
Bodies in the river, trying to wash the blood
Double down Johnny with a bad ass knife
You sold your soul to save your life

Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law
Johnny Johnny Law – you see what Johnny saw
Johnny Johnny Law

Johnny Johnny Law
Give me the hands of law
Johnny Johnny Law
Give me the hands of law
Johnny Johnny Law
Give me the hands of law


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan
 

“Lines”


Pain’s the only feeling I know
When I look back to when you started to go
Love it used to live in this place
Now it’s a stranger with a similar face

Gone my baby
Never save me
Would you know me now? Oh no.
   
So many lines upon my face
So many things I’m not letting go
So many lines upon my face
So many things I’m not letting go
And you know you’re on my mind
And the years begin to kill
I won’t fail you, never will

Everybody leaves in the end
There was no reason for you to pretend
Eyes were open going in
But you never see the oncoming train

Oh my baby
Please come save me
Take my name,  but take me home

So many lines upon my face
So many things I’m not letting go
So many lines upon my face
So many things I’m not letting go
And you know you’re on my mind
As the years begin to kill
I won’t fail you, never will

So many times that I was gone
So many things that I wish I could change
So many days it all went wrong
So many mistakes I wish I could erase
But you know you’re on my mind
As the years begin to kill
Always love you, ever will


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Madame Pompadour

Oh you sweet thing
Sirens sing your name
Sailors say that I’m to blame
Broken on the waves, O save me
Dance your fingertips
On this sinking ship
Dare the deep black sea
With motets and litanies and casting off precious things,
A lesson

Devil knows how to row
Lash me to the mast, Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing my name,
Nobody else to blame
Lash me to the mast
Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing your name
There’s nobody else to blame

Oh you sexy beast
From the distant east
I’ve played all your games
But no word’s safe enough to save me from perdition’s flames
Bluebird, hear my prayer
Save me from despair
Bind me to her heart
Scylla and Charybdis won’t never keep us apart
A lesson

Swingin’ low, here we go
Lash me to the mast, Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing my name,
Nobody else to blame
Lash me to the mast
Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing your name
And everybody knows that

Ghostly rain and hurricanes and
Stormy seas may roll
But I’m the Master of my Fate
And Captain of my Soul
Seven Spanish ships set sail
Down to the water in a long black veil
But you, my dear Reinette Poisson
Kept me strong enough to get back home

Lash me to the mast, Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing my name,
Nobody else to blame
Lash me to the mast
Madame Pompadour
Madame Pompadour
Sirens sing your name
And then somebody sang

My cherie Rose,
Je t’aime, j’adore
Madame Pompadour
Sirènes chantent votre nom
Je ne serai jamais le même

My cherie Rose,
Je t’aime, j’adore
Madame Pompadour
Sirènes chantent votre nom
Je ne serai jamais le même


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

 

Now That I Need You

 

Where are you now?
Now that I need you
When I’m on my own
I long to feel you
Holding me close, whispering softly
Running your fingers through my hair gently

I love you so
More than I’ve told you
More than you know
Much more than I’ve showed you
And when we’re apart
I feel so broken
Tearing my heart with love unspoken

I know I should know better than to want you
I know I should know better than to need you
And though I should know better than to love you
Better than to love you
Better than to love you
I love you still
More than you love me
And I dream of you
While you forget me
I dream and dream
Wishing in vain
Hoping that you will come back again

I love you so
More than I’ve told you
More than you know
Much more than I’ve showed you
And when you are gone
I feel so broken
Tearing my heart with love unspoken

But I’m all alone
Living without you
Aching all night
Wondering about you
Wondering what gods
or demons mislead you
Where are you now?
Now that I need you

Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan
 

Once Upon A Nevermind

Kissing in the pouring rain
Went too far and back again
Never knew what we would find
Once upon a nevermind
Words were said and vows were made
Jokers in the love parade
Words so cruel, at once so kind
Once upon a nevermind
Speak of borders, rise and fall
Hold me tight against the wall
Never learned what games were played
Never played your love charade

Dancing in the bed of dreams
Dreaming all of magic things
Never knew that you’d be blind
Once upon a nevermind
All men must one time decide
Money, love or precious pride
Never choose the ties that bind
Once upon a nevermind

Speak in whispers, don’t betray
Everything you’ve held at bay
Never listen to the call
Stop to wonder, lose it all

Kissing in the pouring rain
Went too far and back again
Wonder why you ever tried
Once upon a nevermind
Once upon a nevermind
Once upon a never, ever mind


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Redeye

The summer’s gone, it’s time to go
I hate the long journey home
So much I wish that I had done
But now it seems my time is gone
I can’t believe that I’m leavin’, like this so soon
on the redeye
on the redeye

A dream you love can still come true
So everytime I think of you
I’ll draw a circle ‘round the stars
for everything that could be ours
Nothing that ever lived can die
remember me and don’t you cry
I’m with you every single day
and I’ll return again to stay
So you believe, and no grieving, I miss you too
on the redeye
on the redeye
this is goodbye

We’ll meet again when day is done
so hold me close til morning comes
strange endings come to me at last
for everything you love that’s passed

I can’t believe that I’m leavin’, like this so soon
on the redeye
on the redeye
on the redeye


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Revolution Road

Out on revolution road, the lights go down
The boys are heading out to some godforsaken town
Loading up the van, it’s goodbye again
On the road

Out in ordinary town, you were gods
Sons of saviours and failures who beat the odds
With an old guitar in hand, you began again
All alone

And oh, we’re all dreamers whose dreams have run
We’re all drinking and singing to crowds of one
Searching for tomorrow in a sea of what has gone (chances that are long gone)
But the song carries on

Once some million dollar man caught the show
Talkin’ labels, and stables and rollin’ in the dough
Took some paperwork in hand, and you grabbed the pen
On your own

Cause oh, how could you pass it up when your ship came in,
But oh, when she tanked and sank, how’d you to learn to swim?
Is it love or money that makes the fire still burn
Will the song ever return?

Well they tore down Wong’s and they tore down your songs
And they tore you down too
They say your scene is dead and the doctor said
Not a damn thing you can do
But every generation kills its heroes and zeroes with equal aplomb
So don’t you hang your head, ‘cause like the man said,
You’ve got to live before you’re gone
So you carry on

Out on revolution road the lights are low
The boys are setting up for another lonely show
Loadin’ up and then, the dream’s alive again
On the road
Yeah, on the road
On the road


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Til I Feel That Magic Again

Draggin’ myself out of bed
But I’d rather go back and sleep
If I die before I should wake
Do I have a soul left to keep

Baby I used to feel so young and alive
What happened to me since then?
Seems like this time there’s nowhere I can hide
Til I feel that magic again

The person I wanted to be
Is now just a memory to me
A vision that sits on a shelf
A memory of failing myself

Baby I used to feel so young and alive
What happened to me since then?
Seems like this time there’s nowhere I can hide
Til I feel that magic again

(solo)

I’m so lost now, I don’t know how
To try and start over again
I wish to god there was a way
For my broken heart to mend

Draggin’ myself back to bed
But I wish I knew what to dream
If I’m in your arms when I wake
The magic means so much to me

Baby I used to feel so young and alive
What happened to me since then?
Seems like this time there’s nowhere I can hide
Til I feel that magic again


Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Toughlove

Draw the curtains
Bind the blinds
And this won’t take me too much time, I
Want to tell you,
Days ago
I lived a nightmare down below
You can’t see this night
It’s what you want, it’s what you need
But I can’t hold this dream,
It’s why I bleed,
It’s what you need

Dig that grave for all my hopes, I’m
Hanging from your heavy rope, and
Kiss that angel, night, goodnight
I drift and down I fall

I can’t leave this night,
Not what I want, it’s what I need
And I can’t hang this lightless night, it’s right
It’s what I need

(solo)

This is all that I’ve become
Though it may change in years to come
I’m less than shadows of my past
I’m sorry that I failed you

You can’t see this night
It’s what you want, it’s what you need
But I can’t hold this dream,
It’s why I bleed,
It’s what you need

You can’t see this night
It’s what you want, it’s what you need
But I can’t change this dream,
It’s why I bleed,
It’s what you need

Draw the curtains, bind the blinds
And this won’t take me too much time

From “The Barrelhouse Opera” by Cait Brennan. Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Twilight

Days and days I haven’t slept
I can feel it in my chest
Something finally exploded
There is never any rest
Convolutions of my name
Exorcism of my fear
Turns against me in the end
Sad betrayal of this love

In the twilight once again
Underneath the dust of days
Sleeping waters, black and cold
Heavy angels drag your hands
Past the twilight, past the end
Wrap your legs in weights and chains
I will never breathe the air
Underneath this sheath of earth
As the twilight falls again
Echoes of forgotten tears
Cry for meaning in the night
As she rages towards the light
Of a dark that never ends
As the dawn of dusk descends
In the twilight once again
In the twilight once again
In the twilight, never ends,
In the twilight once again

Oh, the twilight once again
Cast aspersions to the wind
Hold her close and take my hand
In the twilight once again



Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

Underworld

Fields and forests call your name
But I just lay in wait
Traps and schemes fall in your dreams
and I am just the bait
On the edge of town,
I will pull you down
To the underworld
To the underworld
To the underworld

You’re a rabbit in my hands and your heart beats so fast
I do what my god commands (what’s wrong is right at last)
You can take the stairs and come into my lair
To the underworld
To the underworld
To the underworld

I am nature’s daughter but I live inside the sun
You are what you barter with the souls of everyone
I do all the things you fear while you just watch and wait
And I love all the things you love
and hate the things you hate
On the edge of town,
I will pull you down
To the underworld
To the underworld
To the underworld

Finally you’re learning what they don’t want you to know
Finally you’re going where they don’t want you to go
On the edge of town
yeah, I will pull you down
To the underworld
To the underworld
To the underworld

Written by Cait Brennan. Published by Cait Brennan Music (ASCAP) © 2015 Cait Brennan

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